I found myself shopping again which is usually my choice while being moody. My mind was full of thoughts. I was walking physically with my soul floating above.Who am I? Where am I from? Why am I on Earth? How many people do talk to their hearts? They usually let their rational mind hurt themselves and bother others for their egoistic purposes. They don’t have a single right to do so. And lack of responsibilities they go on ahead living in their shadows. They would never find a ‘home’ where they truly feel the happiness. I miss my home sometimes where I could live with no boundary, no jealousy and no burdens. If there were such human form aliens, I would be one.
My performance came. The moment I stepped on the stage, all my thoughts were immediately gone. Only my songs and I were there. I raised my voice. Music connects people. I was sending my heart to audiences. Felt a few drops of tears going down to my cheeks. There was a fight between my heart and my mind. Hearty wanted to cry but mindy wanted to sing. “All I want to do is find a way back into love”. I knew from my heart I would not be able to both cry and keep up with my voice. By instinct my left hand was cuddling my shoulder and my mouth was speaking the song’s lyrics instead of singing them. I let myself tearful. When it felt enough, I came back to my singing without missing any melodies. It was the most beautiful cooperation of the heart and mind. They made a great team. I wish I could hide in a corner and cry like a baby but life is still going on.
Someone asked me that what the difference is between a submissive and a slave. There are actually a lot of different ideas around this. In my opinions, the first thing is a submissive will become a slave once he is owned by a certain Domme. Actually the words already indicate their own differences. A slave is someone who devotes himself completely and probably into a 24/7 relationship while a submissive may just be a follower.
I have dominated several newbie submissives so I am sharing some of my experiences for those who are not sure what to do and where to start as a beginner.
To me, the first impression is a sub’s behaviors that normally shows how senior you are. As a beginner, you might not know how to behave in front of a Dominant or what you are supposed to be. The very basic thing that I train my sub is to be humble and respectful toward me. The way you talk and behave can be a plus to me if I still consider about having you as a slave.
Since I like being treated like a Queen so I always find it very beautiful when someone bows to me on their knees, kisses my hands and feet, calls me Miss and wait for my orders. It is very fascinating because I get to see your pretty side that comes from being your true self that is much better than your physical look.
If you are a submissive naturally, drop your ego and act like what the word ‘submissive’ really means. If you still hold your ‘ I ‘, the D/s relation will never work. Please be aware that the more submissive you are, the more powerful your Owner becomes. And do not worry about experiences. Everyone starts from the beginning. Experiences will come through your submission and devotion. Once you are happy and enjoyable in serving your Owner, you are on the right track.