I found myself shopping again which is usually my choice while being moody. My mind was full of thoughts. I was walking physically with my soul floating above.Who am I? Where am I from? Why am I on Earth? How many people do talk to their hearts? They usually let their rational mind hurt themselves and bother others for their egoistic purposes. They don’t have a single right to do so. And lack of responsibilities they go on ahead living in their shadows. They would never find a ‘home’ where they truly feel the happiness. I miss my home sometimes where I could live with no boundary, no jealousy and no burdens. If there were such human form aliens, I would be one.
My performance came. The moment I stepped on the stage, all my thoughts were immediately gone. Only my songs and I were there. I raised my voice. Music connects people. I was sending my heart to audiences. Felt a few drops of tears going down to my cheeks. There was a fight between my heart and my mind. Hearty wanted to cry but mindy wanted to sing. “All I want to do is find a way back into love”. I knew from my heart I would not be able to both cry and keep up with my voice. By instinct my left hand was cuddling my shoulder and my mouth was speaking the song’s lyrics instead of singing them. I let myself tearful. When it felt enough, I came back to my singing without missing any melodies. It was the most beautiful cooperation of the heart and mind. They made a great team. I wish I could hide in a corner and cry like a baby but life is still going on.
From Miss T.